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Sk8er Boi

"He was a boy She was a Girl Can I make it any more obvious? He was a punk She did ballet What more can I say? He wanted her She'd never tell Secretly she wanted him as well But all of her friends Stuck up their nose They had a problem with his baggy clothes"  ~Avril Lavigne Trigger Warnings: Language, Self Harm, Suicidal Thoughts, Depression         The last post was full of darkness so I left him out.  It wouldn't be fair for him to have to share that part of this narrative. I fell in love in 99.. foolishly adults say youths can't fall in love.. yet life is about constantly getting our hearts broken isn't it? I was 14 he lied said he was 16 a week later he admitted he was 17 it didn't matter he could have been 25 and a hunchback.  I fell so completely deeply in love with him.The kind of love that Manson's ladies probably felt for him.      Luckily he wasn't Manson he was a 17 year old boy who had ...
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The evolution of a name.

Trigger Warnings: Depression, Anxiety, Self-harm, rape, suicidal thoughts, eating disorder      I am starting this blog selfishly out the pure hope of catharsis.  In the spirit of early 90's crime TV series I will be changing the names including my own to protect not them but myself in small town America.  My name isn't really a change though.. she is me and she is a part of my story.. the part that always let me live just outside the edges of myself and my reality.. Many times Lilly probably kept me from saying fuck it and finally exiting the world I hated so badly.       Funny how when I actually sit down to write I have a plan then it changes as my fingers caress the keys, flying faster than the thoughts, that I so carefully had selected which become so easily discarded in the fuck it bucket.  Lilly.. Hmmm growing up I hated my name with a deep vehemence, I would cry and beg my mother to take me to the courthouse and get it changed....
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